By the time this post is published, I will already be in retreat and hence off-line until June 2nd.
Leaving Saint John’s has been a mixture of sorrow to leave friends and a pattern of life that I’ve grown to value these past three years, elation at the prospect of actually hitting the road and living a dream that’s been percolating and slowly coming to actualization over the past year, and the occasional moment of deer-in-the-headlights anxiety as I contemplate the future: “I’m going to do WHAT!?”
Most of all, there is gratitude. The celebratory dinners, and prayers and blessings that have been offered on my behalf this past week have all been genuine sources of comfort, connection, and affirmation. And the outpouring of financial support has been astounding. I set a goal of wanting to raise a total of $10,000 before I leave, not believing that I would actually reach that amount. As of this writing, however, I have received $9,500, a mere $500 short of my projected goal. To me, this is a resounding success, not only because I now have enough funds to complete at least most of the tour, but because of what this outpouring of support tells me about my aspirations for this project: I have struck a chord with many people who not only see meaning and value in what I am doing but are willing to invest themselves to help make it happen. Taken altogether, I cannot imagine leaving on a more positive, encouraging note.
So as I take this bundle of sorrow, elation, anxiety, and gratitude into 10 days of silent prayer, I say: Thank you. I will see you on the road.